Anne Frank and the Holocaust Museum.

this past week i went to Washington DC for about half a day, which if you've ever been to DC you know that this is not enough time to do much. so i went to the Capitol and the Holocaust Memorial Museum. the Capitol was amazing. the architecture is simply incredible, such detail and precision...it's absolutely amazing, and just so much history! geez...i can't even tell you how amazing that was. and the Holocaust Museum......completely breathtaking! it broke my heart, but it was SO interesting. they had so many artifacts, it was incredible! they had diaries from victims, railcars that deported jews were transported in, bunks from auschwitz (one of the main concentration camps), shoes and luggage that were taken from the victims when they arrived at camps...it was just so amazing to be among these things that once belonged to these people that suffered so horrifically because of intolerance. it made me sick, but was awe inspiring at the same time. i can't even explain it. but i was really touched by it. i am so glad their stories are being told. there is no justification for what has been done to them, but this at least honors everything that they've suffered and is fighting the likelyhood of it ever happening again. i have a feeling this is one of my new major movements. i'm always up for supporting a good cause, and avoiding genocide and protecting human rights is a very worthy cause. it really is something that i feel strongly about, so expect more on the subject!

while there i got a card that had an excerpt from The Diary of Anne Frank, which sadly enough i still haven't read!!! i want to so badly though...but the excerpt was simply amazing so i really feel i need to post it.

"Do any of those people in their warm and cozy living rooms have any idea what kind of life a beggar leads?

Do any of those "good" and "kind" people ever wonder about the lives of so many of the children and adults around the? Granted, everyone has given a coin to a beggar at some time or another, though they usually just shove it into his hand and slam the door. And in most cases the generous donors think it's disgusting to touch that hand! Am I right or not? then, afterwards, people are amazed that beggars are so shameless! Wouldn't you be shameless too if you were treated more like a dog than a human being?

It's terrible, really terrible, that people treat each other this way in a country like Holland, which claims to have such a good social system and so many decent, upstanding citizens. In the eyes of most of the well-to-do, a beggar is an inferior being, somebody who's scruffy and unwashed, pushy and rude. But have they ever asked themselves how beggars got to be that way?

You should try comparing one of those beggar children with your own children! What's the difference? Yours are pretty and neat, the others are ugly and ragged! Is that all? Yes, that's all, that's the only difference. I you dressed one of those urchins in nice clothes and taught him good maners, there wouldn't be a whit of difference!

Everyone is born equal; we all come into the world helpless and innocent. We all breathe the same air, and many of us believe in the same God. And yet...and yet, to many people this one small difference is a huge one! It's huge because many people hae never realized what the difference is, for they would have discovered long ago that there's actually no difference at all!

Everyone is born equal; we will all die and shed our earthly glory. Riches, power and fame last for only a few short years. Why do we cling so desperately to these fleeting things? Why can't people who have money more than enough for their own needs give the rest to their fellow human beings? Why should anyone have to have such a hard life for those few short years on earth?

But above all, a gift should never be flung in someone's face---every person has a right to kindness. Why should you be nicer to a rich lady than to a poor one? Has anyone ever studied the difference in their characters?

Human greatness does not lie in wealth or power, but in character and goodness. People are just people, and all people have faults and shortcomings, but all of us are born with a basic goodness. If we were to start by adding to that goodness instead of stifling it, by giving poor people the feeling that they too are human beings, we wouldn't necessarily have to give money or material things, since not everyone has them to give.

Everything starts in small ways, so in this case you can begin in small ways too. On streetcars, for example, don't just offer your seat to rich mothers, think of the poor ones too. And say "excuse me" when you step on a poor person's toe, jut as you say it to a rich one.

It takes so little effort, yet it means so much. Why shouldn't you show a little kindness to those poor urchins who are already so deprived?

We all know that "example is better than precept." So set a good example, and it won't take long for others to follow. More and more people will become kind and generous, until finally no one will ever again look down on those without money.

Oh, if only we were already that far! If only Holland, then Europe, and finally the whole world realized how unfair it was being, if only the time would come when people treated each other with genuine goodwill, in the realization that we're all equal and that worldly things are transitory!

How wonderful it is that no one has to wait, but can start right now to gradually change the world! How wonderful it is that everyone, great and small, can immediately help bring about justice by giving of themselves!

As with so many things, most people seek justice in very different quarters, and grumble because they themselves receive so little of it.

Open your eyes, be fair in your own dealings first! Give whatever there is to give! You can always---always---give something, even if it's a simple act of kindness! If everyone were to give in this way and didn't scrimp on kindly words, there would be much more love and justice in the world!

Give and you shall recieve, much more that you ever thought possible. Give and give again. Keep hoping, keep trying, keep giving! People who give will never be poor!
If you follow this advice, whithin a few generations, people will never have to feel sorry for poor little beggar children again, because there won't be any!
The world has plenty of room, riches, money and beauty. God has created enough for each and every one of us. Let us begin by dividing it more fairly!
-March 26, 1944"

amazing.

Independence Day Revelations

I wrote this in my journal July 4th....sorry I'm so late posting it. and sorry I haven't made a post in a while. My move has been pretty crazy and stressful so I'm just starting to get back to my computer.




Growing up in Texas, I feel like I lost some of my sense of adventure and my wonder at the beauty of nature. Other than sand dunes and some mediocre trees, there's really not that much to inspire either of the above. I regained both today. For Independence Day my family and I went to Mohican State Park in...well...somewhere in Ohio. We picnicked (is that how you spell that? is that even considered a real word?...) by a beautiful creek with a big covered bridge that you can stand on to overlook the creek and all of the trees and just the beauty of nature. That was incredible. There simply is NOT this brand of beauty in Texas. End of story. I love Texas, don't get me wrong, but I appreciate the urban parts & the atmosphere, not really the rugged terrain...I was gone so long that I had completely forgotten how incredible nature is up here! It's simply breathtaking.

I also discovered my new favorite place in the world: Clear Fork Gorge, which is also in Mohican State Park. It is over 1000 feet wide and 300 feet deep and has been largely untouched by humans and contains several kinds of trees which have become very rare. It also holds historical significance because Johnny Appleseed apparently traveled around the Gorge regularly while tending his apple orchards nearby. Despite all these impressive-ish facts...it is simply gorgeous. I sat at the overlook for over an hour just staring at the Gorge in pure awe. It really takes your breath away and puts you in your place.

I've grown up in such a self-centered, destructive society that I've become so complacent to just how small I am in this huge world. In a world where I am surrounded by cleared off, paved streets and commercialized buildings, houses, and transportation, it has become so easy for me to get stuck in an artificial mindset. The Gorge was so big and beautiful that it really set me straight from this mindset. When you can hop in your little regulated, man-made, manufactured car and travel down man-made roads and know exactly where you are going and what you are doing, it is so easy to feel definitively important, like you've conquered the earth. With no trees in sight, nothing but high rises and fancy apartments, you must have conquered nature, right? There can't be anything else, can there?

This is where we need to wake up! Going to the Gorge helped me to realize that I haven't conquered nature; I'm nowhere close! It is so vast and powerful and majestic and we are so small and insignificant! We feel like we're above needing something so powerful, but when we truly experience it, it just breaks us and rebuilds us into something beautiful.

Instead of seeking to conquer nature, why not let it conquer us? Take it in! Let it overwhelm you! If I could have everyone experience things in their lives, it would, by far, be the simple things: to look at the trees, to watch rain hit a lake or creek or river, to feel the wind on your face, to hear the wind in the trees, to feel the rain on your skin, to hear the birds chirping...to experience nature at it's fullest....

I do not believe that to experience life is to be successful in your job or have a good looking spouse or well behaved children, although none of these things are bad. I believe that to experience life...to truly experience it at its fullest....is to strip it of luxury and all things artificial and to simply feel life and nature sheerly overwhelm you. To let it take your breath away. To live it.


.love.
sarah.elaine

the small being

Alex Fleming

Why do the most wonderful people have to die?

I'm not saying that the less wonderful people deserve to die...but it just doesn't seem fair.



Alex Fleming was such a wonderful person! Ridiculously smart, outrageously kind, just an all around great person.

Alex died in a car accident last night. this kills me inside! i don't think you even understand!



he had so much potential! he literally could have been ANYTHING he wanted to be! he could have changed the world. and now he's just gone. :(




i can't even comprehend this. my mind is not capable of wrapping itself around it!

we weren't the best of friends...but he was insanely nice to me! we would talk during class and wave at each other whenever we saw each other and that's enough to care for someone.

he was one of those people that before i knew him, i really wanted to get to know him. and once i knew him...i wanted to get to know him better. he just had that attraction about him that you just really wanted to know him! unfortunately, i never got the chance to get to know him as well as i would have liked.



all this to say...I'm so glad that Alex is in a better place and that he didn't suffer...but we will all miss him terribly!

Continued introspection and a new curiosity

so, i find myself more and more often getting into moods where i just want to be by myself and read, journal, and/or just listen to music. i'm becoming more and more introverted. yet becoming more and more loving and accepting/extroverted. i'm not really sure how to explain it. i'm not really sure what to think of this new introversion either because it's so different from how i've always been.
for almost all my life i've been EXTREMELY extroverted and out in the open with myself. i've always been very codependent and couldn't be by myself for very long. but now i only want to be by myself sometimes.

i've also become ridiculously curious! i always want to learn something new and find new things to love and appreciate. other religions and cultures and schools of thought have always intrigued me but i never really got into any of it and looked things up and such until now.



i've just become really deep and introverted recently. i don't completely understand it...but i like it! i love to read again! for so long i hated reading and didn't want anything to do with it but now all of a sudden i want to read everything i can get my hands on!!!!

is anyone else going through anything of the sort? or anything unrelated even...i really want to hear others' thoughts!!! i want to hear from you!!! :)

i realized tonight that i am the epitome of what a person SHOULD NOT be.

not because i think i'm unattractive or fat or anything of that sort because i'm not. but because i'm insecure and let things that people say get to me. i didn't use to...but i've become a self-seeking, others-pleasing person. because i'm a hypocrite and even though i hate it when people are insecure and can't stand up for themselves...i am exactly that. because i want change in the world...yet i do nothing. because i'm comfortable...

i don't want to be comfortable with being comfortable.
i want to be put in someone else's shoes...someone who's barely making it.
someone who doesn't know luxury and comfort the way i do.
i want to appreciate what i have and not take it for granted.
i don't want to be bothered by someone's judgement of my appearance.
i want to be a revolutionary...
i want to do more than just say things...





i want to do them.

today is the beginning...of introspection and inspiration.

I felt particularly introspective and inspired today.



I went and bought a journal...
I never liked journals...I would always look back at them and think "I was really dumb to write that."
I really hope that doesn't happen this time.
I love the idea of publishing my thoughts...it really intrigues me for some reason.

I'm really loving Stephen Christian right now. Not like mancrush kind of love but incredible human being kind of love.
I've been reading his blogs and it's ridiculous how inspiring that guy is!
He can look at such simple things and be 100% inspired.
I strive to be that way.
I truly have had a longing to make a real and definite change for a while...but never did anything about it....




until now...